this shall be a random post.. i just feel like writing out what i'm thinking now..

first.. i wanna wish everyone a MERRY X'MAS!!.. and i guess i had the most meaningful x'mas this yr.. for the past 19 years.. X'mas is just another public holiday.. but.. from now on.. it is not just a public holiday.. it is a day for sharing, giving and thanksgiving for what god had done for us.. i finally knoe the true meaning for celebrating x'mas.. thns to steve and my kor.. had a wonderful experience at their churches..

well.. i do believe in god.. but i seriously dunno wat's holding me back from becoming a beliver.. i really dunno.. maybe i'm afraid that my dad would be super angry if i become one.. i'm afraid to make him disappointed and angry.. or perhaps i'm just scared of what others will think abt me.. just like wat i used to think abt the christians.. i used to find them weird and irritating.. they will keep telling me abt the stories and stuffs related.. it is until recently that my perception abt them hav slightly improve.. to me.. they are just so eager to share their blessing to the ppl around them.. and are just a bunch of frenly ppl..

the stories they share in the service were so true.. what they are sayin is exactly how i'm feelin.. and i knoe that i just need time to adjust myself to the new thinking and perhaps.. life would be better and not bitter..

*qi still pondering..*
*MERRY CHRISTMAS!..*