poly life has come to an end.. thou its not officially an end as there's still exam results and graduation day coming soon.. made a huge careless mistake when answering the last qns of the agrotech paper.. and the qns tt came out wasn't totally as expected.. and also being fickle-minded in the mcq also led to the lost of some marks.. but overall.. i still hope i can get an 'A' la..

now that poly life have ended.. i'm really confuse in wat i shld continue to pursue.. there's teaching, maths, life sci and accounting.. but i tink i shld be applyin for as many as i can.. hahas.. but 1st choice i will listen to my kor's advice in applyin for accountancy.. thou i dunno if it's a wise choice.. but.. i believe if i can get in.. it's already a miracle.. cos i feel that i just can't make it for the interviews.. this is one big hurdle i need to overcome in order to have a successful life ahead.. so peiqi and also to some of the others who might be reading this entry!!.. u must pull urself up!.. stop blaming others for not giving u the attention and time u wan.. it's time to really grow up and face the beautiful world.. u are born to this world for a reason.. dun be sad for not getting wat u wan.. cos.. someone will appear whom will see u as his/her world.. =) LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!!.. >.<

a bit tired le.. went dinner and k box with edwin just now.. i still like his accompany.. i guess he's a good companion to a lot of his frens.. thns edwin for the time.. i enjoyed myself just now.. =)

good nite ppl!..

just finish the moule which have been a 'killer module' for many people.. actually i tink its not very killer la.. as long as u pay attenttion in class.. and try to understand all the processes.. it will all eventually make sense to you..

actually wat's so scary abt exams is becos the qns to be asked cannot be anticipated.. and u will worry this and that.. but when u sit down there lookin at the qns.. u will feel like vomitin.. in the sense vomitin all that u have understood.. so.. exam is actually a time for u to vomit out evt.. and u will feel much better after that.. hahas.. kinda make sense bahs..

felt so lousy nowadays.. took over my sis's student for tuition.. i really forgots most of the sec sch stuff.. sec1 is still ok.. but.. the sec4 one makes me feel super stress.. i dunno in wat way i can be of help to her.. and i dun hav the confidence to teach a sec4 student when i'm only a graduating poly student.. how i wish my sis haven't gone for the shanghai attachment.. then i wun be facing all these ALONE.. yes!.. ALONE.. i dun wan to be alone.. i dun wan to be forgotten and erased for ppl's mind.. i knoe tis isn't possible.. but.. i just wan someone to appear in my life and really be my best fren who will treat my with their true heart.. i'm kinda envious of my sis to have a fren like pearlin.. she's like a pearl to her.. i also wan a fren like this.. but.. it's hard.. evt when i feel that this very person is someone who will always be there for me de actually doesn't appear to be real.. i will either be forgotten, excluded or simply ignored for certain things/events/gatherings.. but i guess is becos i have a image of study study and study.. and they will simply not ask me anything as they assume that i will be studyin.. hais.. i really used to tink i have this grp of frens who will be my frens FOREVER.. but i guess.. the grp of frens is not for real.. i'm sorry to say this.. but it's true.. u guys may not notice it.. but i knoe.. we ARE drifting apart.. i dun wan to face the reality.. I DUN WAN!!.. i dunno whether it is a mistake to be so studies-oriented.. i seriously dunno.. and now that even my sis is not in s'pore, not by my side to give me encouragement.. i seriously feel so... ... ... i'm lost.. i dun like tht fact that i'm born to this world and i dun wan to be peiqi.. someone who does not make a difference to others.. I DUN WAN!!..

Jie i miss u so so so much.. i wan to see u.. i wan to feel ur presence, i wan to hear ur voice and ur nonsense.. thou i dun have much of such moments ever since u got ur baby.. but.. i really wan ur presence.. even just for a while.. i'm really scared and lost right now.. Jie.. dun leave me alone as well.. pls dun.. u and daddy mummy are the ones i love most.. JIE.. I MISS YOU!!..

3 yrs of poly life is really comin to an end.. i'm gonna miss all those lame and funny days DBT/class 02 hav given me for the past 3 yrs.. thou i can get super angry with all those lame tricks u guys always do.. but come to tink of it now.. it is really all those lame actions u guys did that had brightened and add colours to the 3 yrs of poly life.. in addtion, i will also not forget all the DS-ing sessions: mario kart-ing, bomberman, mario party.. its really fun to play tgt.. i will always remember all the DS time cos we wun hav such a chance to play DS as often tgt anymore after we graduate.. and also not forgetting.. the rubiks cube!!.. all thns to Mr Steven Yong who got almost the entire DBT/3B02 to get addicted in solving the cube and also competing with each other.. i guess our class is seriously very contagious class.. cos.. we have abt 4 PSP, 6 DS and 7 rubiks cubes in class!!.. hahas..

and also not forgetting my dearest MPH.. we shared so much joy and stressful times tgt.. all the datasheets, practical sessions, presentations, FYP.. i'm really glad and greatful that MPH can still stay as close tgt for the whole of 3 yrs, despite all those quarrels, jealousy, PMS-ing, and also the fact that some of the clicks fell out wit one another.. jun and tong: i love both of you!! muahs!.. really a million thns for evt!!..

and now that we are left with 2 more papers.. jiayou ppl!!.. study hard and give your best shot for the final sem exam in poly!!.. GOOD LUCK!!..=)