just finish the moule which have been a 'killer module' for many people.. actually i tink its not very killer la.. as long as u pay attenttion in class.. and try to understand all the processes.. it will all eventually make sense to you..

actually wat's so scary abt exams is becos the qns to be asked cannot be anticipated.. and u will worry this and that.. but when u sit down there lookin at the qns.. u will feel like vomitin.. in the sense vomitin all that u have understood.. so.. exam is actually a time for u to vomit out evt.. and u will feel much better after that.. hahas.. kinda make sense bahs..

felt so lousy nowadays.. took over my sis's student for tuition.. i really forgots most of the sec sch stuff.. sec1 is still ok.. but.. the sec4 one makes me feel super stress.. i dunno in wat way i can be of help to her.. and i dun hav the confidence to teach a sec4 student when i'm only a graduating poly student.. how i wish my sis haven't gone for the shanghai attachment.. then i wun be facing all these ALONE.. yes!.. ALONE.. i dun wan to be alone.. i dun wan to be forgotten and erased for ppl's mind.. i knoe tis isn't possible.. but.. i just wan someone to appear in my life and really be my best fren who will treat my with their true heart.. i'm kinda envious of my sis to have a fren like pearlin.. she's like a pearl to her.. i also wan a fren like this.. but.. it's hard.. evt when i feel that this very person is someone who will always be there for me de actually doesn't appear to be real.. i will either be forgotten, excluded or simply ignored for certain things/events/gatherings.. but i guess is becos i have a image of study study and study.. and they will simply not ask me anything as they assume that i will be studyin.. hais.. i really used to tink i have this grp of frens who will be my frens FOREVER.. but i guess.. the grp of frens is not for real.. i'm sorry to say this.. but it's true.. u guys may not notice it.. but i knoe.. we ARE drifting apart.. i dun wan to face the reality.. I DUN WAN!!.. i dunno whether it is a mistake to be so studies-oriented.. i seriously dunno.. and now that even my sis is not in s'pore, not by my side to give me encouragement.. i seriously feel so... ... ... i'm lost.. i dun like tht fact that i'm born to this world and i dun wan to be peiqi.. someone who does not make a difference to others.. I DUN WAN!!..

Jie i miss u so so so much.. i wan to see u.. i wan to feel ur presence, i wan to hear ur voice and ur nonsense.. thou i dun have much of such moments ever since u got ur baby.. but.. i really wan ur presence.. even just for a while.. i'm really scared and lost right now.. Jie.. dun leave me alone as well.. pls dun.. u and daddy mummy are the ones i love most.. JIE.. I MISS YOU!!..